Two bits of news today, one slightly bad, the other slightly good.
Slightly bad – There’s no way to get insurance in July. I may be able to get an individual policy with Kaiser and that’s what I’ll pursue, but it will be expensive and if I’m accepted, it won’t be active until August 1.
Slightly good [...]
Entries from June 2008
June 30, 2008
Bad News, Good News
June 27, 2008
Third Law of Emotions
All I have to show for the biopsy yesterday is a small bruise and a slight soreness. I’m feeling pretty upbeat this morning. I need to be careful not to get too exuberant or else I’ll pay the price. To a certain extent I believe Newton’s Third Law applies to emotions. “For every emotion, there [...]
June 26, 2008
“X” Doesn’t Mark the Spot
It’s evening and I’m home. The biopsy was rather painless. The anesthesia worked well. I remember talking to Tammy while on the CT table and the next thing I know I’m in the recovery room an hour later. I had an omelet and they sent me home.
Dr. Goldich did the procedure, removing a piece [...]
June 25, 2008
No Coffee Enemas!
Biopsy tomorrow. It’s going to be more of a procedure than I expected. I’ll be conscious but drugged. Susan is coming along to take care of me. I hope I don’t say anything embarrassing while on the happy juice.
Speaking of happy juice, I’ve learned just how expensive cancer drugs can be! Some individual drugs cost [...]
June 23, 2008
Four Friends
I continue to have peace and even a heightened sense of aliveness despite the large shadow cast by such a small tumor. The darkness could grow with a grim diagnosis or shrink to manageable proportions; all I can do is live in the moment.
Today I read a story in the Gospel of Mark that encourages [...]
June 22, 2008
Chemestry and Calmness
We went to The Gathering today as usual. I mainly go to church these days to see my grandkids. I’ve gone from being a pastor and preacher in years past to occasionally helping in the two-year-old class. I know I need the relationships afforded by church but I haven’t engaged with the people here on [...]
June 21, 2008
Distant from the Deity
I didn’t sleep very well last night, lots to think about, from the fleeting nature of life to whether I can take my own pillow to the hospital.
Obviously God has entered my thoughts and discussions the past few weeks but my inability to pray hasn’t suddenly changed. For a few years now I’ve felt [...]
June 20, 2008
CT Scans and Funeral Homes
I spent most of the day checking various insurance options. None will work for me with the possible exception of Kaiser. Insurance aside, what I’ve heard from several people, quite emphatically, is not to wait for insurance but to get the surgery as soon as possible.
The hospital called this afternoon to schedule the biopsy [...]
