There seems to be no way to reconcile it (evil) with who God is. It is as if I have a rich and powerful father who says he loves me and will be there for me. Yet when I encounter a desperate situation, he refuses to help, even though I know he can. My response is not unbelief. I don’t say, “I no longer believe my dad exists.” Rather, I say, “My dad does not seem to be the person I thought he was.”
I now have to reevaluate my father’s character and reexamine the basis for my relationship with him. So the Christian must now reconsider how to love and worship a God who stands aside and allows terrible things to happen even to those who are dedicated to him. While the atheist merely uses suffering to confirm disbelief in God, the Christian who is suffering feels betrayed by God. The atheist is intellectually triumphant—See, I told you there is no God!—while the Christian is heartbroken . . . godforsaken. – Dinesh D’Souza, Godforsaken: Bad Things Happen. Is there a God who cares? Yes. Here’s proof.
I know the feeling.